Am I just hungry or have I had enough?

I know it's been a long time since I've posted. It seems every time I actually get around to using the internet, which isn't very often, the connection is poor and I have to do things like painfully slow internet banking, or snooping on friends' facebook photos, or searching for flights.

I am in Colombo right now, so I actually have access to fast internet. It's such a joy! I spent a good hour looking for flights and finally booked one with Emirates to Toronto on 7 May. Now I'm starting to wonder if it wasn't a mistake though... I mean, I think I might be sick of Sri Lanka. This country is so small I kind of feel like I'm in a small city and I can't seem to get away. Normally I don't think this would be too much of an issue, however, the attention from males here is really insufferable. It's just too much. I'm beginning to feel stifled and irritated...

I wanted to go to Jaffna at least before I leave, but my interest is waning. Today as I jumped through the hoops and finally managed to hand in my application for security clearance to the little security booth outside the Ministry of Defense (you cannot get too close! Not even up to the lawn!) only to find out it will take at least 4 days to process I started to wonder if it's even worth it. Maybe I'm just in a negative space right now, but it feels like there are quite a few things here which are more trouble than they're worth. I am sure it would be different if I were not traveling alone. In fact, SL, like Egypt, is a great place to travel with friends, but it's just too hard on your own. This is not true if you're a man though. If you're a man, prassneyak na. No problem.

SL is also expensive, as I'm sure I've complained about before. It costs $35 just to go see Sigiriya which I'll admit is really cool, but seriously, $35?! I am paying $24 for my room right now and I'm sleeping on a straw mattress which is as hard as hell. The toilet tank is cracked so badly that I have to turn the water off and flush it with a bucket... I have stayed in places this dire (and more so!) in India, but I only paid about $2.50 for those places, so it was tolerable.

Today I was followed out of the mall by this guy, Asanka. When he asked for my phone number I told him I had a boyfriend, so he asked for my email instead. I capitulated to this as it seemed harmless, but it was a mistake. Then he took the bus with me, even though I wasn't going to where he was going, and he paid for my bus fare. If you insist (it's only 8 rupees which is like 8 cents). I was meeting my friend, Jerome for lunch, but this guy came with me and waited while I was waiting for Jerome to show up (damn, he's always late!!) Later it came out that Asanka's actually married... and this is actually no surprise to me at all. It is really really common for married men to hit on me. In fact, it seems like most men here, married or not, 15 or 80, think I will probably sleep with them just because I'm a foreigner, and not only will I sleep with them, they think I'll buy them land and build them a house and give them lots of money. I'm the fairy god slut! Awesome. So yeah, it's kind of wearing on me...

Anyway, I am kind of thinking maybe I should change my flight and go to Europe. I still want to travel, but I'd like to be ignored a little more...

God, I really am feeling grumpy right now. Maybe I should go eat dinner eh?